In search of ...

Lord, my heart aches and I feel very low,

Set things right & get rid of my sorrow,

Eradicate my worries and let me be under your shadow,

As I search for contentment, peace & happiness, right upto my barrow.

Life is hurtful, treacherous and complicated,

Yet I yearn for the moments for which I’ve dearly waited.

I feel ‘I hate you’ is what I desire to blurt,

But I long for you in my heart, which is now deeply hurt.

Why do I have to bear people I don't strongly ‘like’?

Though I should learn to live with it, as that really is ‘Life’!

Is it some talk, some action, or just some ego,

I wonder what went amiss since just a little while ago.

Is it the load of desire that’s diminishing the love?

Whatever be the reason, in a dumpster, I wish to shove.

Lord, punish me where I’ve erred, and give me the blame,

But alleviate me of the suffering and don't give me such pain.

Atonement is better than repenting, is what they say,

But mending human behaviour is indeed tough play.

Someone has to win & the other has to bend,

Lord, give me such strength and help me transcend!

I might be losing, as I try with all my might,
Yet, I must keep going and conquer this fight.

I will come to you when my head hangs low,
Just give me a push, because I want to grow.

I’m often at crossroads, so, tell me where I stand,
Approve me with vigilance, or simply, bless me with your hand.

Eradicate my worries and let me be under your shadow,

As I search for contentment, peace & happiness, right upto my barrow.